The words
"Go On Alone" seem to be one of the themes coming up for me recently.
I was just reminded one of Swami Kriyananda’s last requests for Crystal Clarity
Publishers before he passed away was to put the book A Place Called Ananda back in print with the title Go On Alone: A Struggle Between Personal
Integrity and Group Conformity. That concept can have many layers. The
layer I have been focusing on is how to play your part as an individual to better
support the collective whole.
In choir
practice the other night our leader had us close our eyes while we sang. We
were all amazed to hear how much better we sounded when we had to tune in more
deeply on our own instead of just following the choir conductor. While sounding
like one unified sound, you could also hear each part more poignantly.
I remember when
I used to perform dance pieces without music and without the ability to see all
the dancers at once. We only had our breath and attunement to the group rhythm
that we had previously established. While harder, it always felt more
harmonious and connected with the other dancers and myself. I could feel my
soul vibrate more deeply.
In the last
year and a half both my spiritual guide, Swami Kriyananda, and my mother have
passed away. In the absence of their physical presence, sometimes I felt at a
loss of a protective shield of love.
I did not want
to give up on that feeling. So I turned inwards to feel them deep inside of me.
I have realized their energy is still alive. I might just need to dig a little
deeper to find it. Their energy is a piece of God's love and that always
exists. Even though I have had to walk alone without them in the body, I am
still not alone.
I have noticed times
when I leaned on outside sources, such as a partner or even Ananda. When I
allowed my happiness to depend on their actions or feelings I was not as happy
as when I sought it inside myself.
I like that
Ananda's two main theme songs are Many
Hands Make a Miracle and Go On Alone.
It is helpful to have a good environment around us. With a group, our actions
can have much more impact and others can help keep us aligned. Yet where would
the group be if we did not put effort forward as each individual and try to
tune in ourselves? One of my counselors at Ananda often likes to tell me, “A group
is only as strong as its weakest link.”
When Swami
Kriyananda passed away one of my first thoughts was, "What is next? What
does Swami want to happen now?" Swami had such great magnetism that it was
effortless for many of us to attract people to share our teachings. Now without
his direct impact in the body I have found it helps to both walk alone to find
that depth within myself and join hands with others to support each other.
During Swami
Kriyananda’s last summer in the Village he suggested we all become Swami
Kriyananda’s. I think he was preparing us to take that next step without him in
the body. I think that is a message for anyone on any path; to realize inside
our own selves what inspires us on the outside.
Go On Alone by Swami Kriyananda
"Walk like a man, even though you walk alone.
Why court approval, once the road is known?
Let come who will, but if they all turn home,
the goal still awaits you: Go on alone!"
Many Hands Make a Miracle by Swami Kriyananda
"Many hands make a miracle:
Let's all join hands together!
Life on earth is so wonderful
When people laugh and dance and
Struggle as friends,
Then all their dreams achieve their ends."
If you would like to read the current version of the book A Place Called Ananda, click here.